Loving the Alien
Looking back, the first time I watched Doctor Who was the first time I felt an artwork change the way I was and the way I saw things. It wasnât just science fiction, it was provocation; the world took on a new aspect because behind the doors of a police telephone box, all of time and space was waiting, and all of time and space was alive with possibility. Thatâs true on a narrative levelâthe Doctorâs ship, the TARDIS, can end up anywhereâbut also on a textual level. Doctor Who was intelligent (âThe Sensoritesâ, âDay of the Daleksâ), scary (âThe Web of Fearâ, âPyramids of Marsâ), witty (âVengeance on Varosâ, âThe Happiness Patrolâ), romantic (âCity of Deathâ), tragic (âThe War Gamesâ), surreal (âKindaâ)⌠Doctor Who was whatever the hell it wanted to be. Thatâs the magic of it. But I didnât know that right away.
âNothingâs just rubbish if you have an inquiring mind.â
- The Doctor, âThe Invasion of Timeâ
When I first started watching, the show was like buried treasure. It was old and flickered like candlelight and bits of it were missing. All the same, it imparted secret knowledge of impossible things; when the Daleks came, or the Autons or the Cybermen, Iâd be ready. I wasnât the first to feel that way and I wonât be the last. To be a fan of something is first and foremost a private actâthat something resonates with you in a way that it wonât resonate with others. Which is why it stung when Doctor Who came back in 2005; the secret was out. Watching the Doctor âliveâ in the present meant watching someone elseâs take on the character and their universe. But I got over it because, bluntly, I grew up and realised Iâd missed the point. Again, not the first, nor the last; people who loved the show in 1965 thought it was rubbish in 1975, people who loved it in 1975 were walking away in 1985, people who love series 2 donât like series 4 and people who love series 4 donât like series 6. Thatâs the other thing about being a fan of something; it wonât always last, especially if that something changes and you donât. But change is at the very heart(s) of Doctor Who.
âIâd like to see a butterfly fit into a chrysalis case after itâs spread its wings.â
- The Doctor, âThe Power of the Daleksâ
No other show reinvents its central character or tries to outdo itself every other week. Whether it works or doesnât is beside the point; the point is that it happened and the story is richer for it. When Disney bought Star Wars (as if a universe is something that can be bought and sold!), all prior âexpanded universeâ materialâall those books and comics and odds and endsâwas declared âLegendsâ and whole stories simply un-happened. It was almost totalitarian. By contrast, the Doctor Who expanded universeâanarchic at bestâhas seen no attempt to weld everything together, or decree that this or that story did or did not happen. In a science fiction universe, the latter makes more sense. These stories are fairytales told in the knowledge that space is expanding andâeven at a subatomic levelâreality is not what it seems. In a world of many worlds, it seems all the more likely that the universe should contradict itself, that any and all possibilities might be realised. So, the announcement last year of Jodie Whittaker as the first woman to portray the Doctor does, in some way, fulfill the showâs ethos, but it also incriminates it; it took one week to bend time, but fifty-five years to bend gender. Either way, it demonstrates that the TARDIS has still got places to go.
âDo you know I once traveled for centuries without ever knowing where Iâd materialize next?â
- The Doctor, âThe Chimes of Midnightâ
Doctor Who resonates with me because it is startlingly honest. Good fiction shouldnât duplicate reality nor should it be an out-and-out escape; good fiction should remind us that reality is far richer and stranger than we are ever prepared to accept. Life is not static; itâs in flux. Unhappy days can be made beautiful. Past and future can be rewritten. One moment can change everything. Life, like the TARDIS, is bigger on the inside.
And Doctor Who? Doctor Who is intelligent (âGridlock, âFlatlineâ), scary (âThe Unquiet Deadâ, âBlinkâ), witty (âPartners in Crimeâ, âThe Doctorâs Wifeâ), romantic (âThe Girl in the Fireplace), tragic (âDoomsdayâ), surreal (âHeaven Sentâ)⌠Doctor Who is whatever the hell it wants to be. Not unlike the Doctor themselves.